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:D I've only gone back to sleep after breakfast today! ... erm. Haha. Well, I managed to stay up the last few days (except Sunday--I was a very lazy, very sleepy loaf.) I think what works for me is having my partner help me wake up (he's been making breakfast lately, although I try to help out), eating, then washing the dishes right after to stay up/keep myself tempted from sleeping. Also, turning off the AC helps me get into work mode, for some reason... I guess because I'm not too comfy! (Although I might have to turn it back on if I'm doing digital artwork, as it can make my laptop overheat...)
I think I'll look into getting a sun lamp as somebody suggested, but I'm not sure they're locally available...
Another thing I should try is to make that one hour before 'work time' be some form of fun time... maybe drawing? Reading some articles? Watching a video? I try to get my butt working at 8am, and log out at around 3pm (then I go work out at a gym, three times a week!) But my partner gets up around 5.30am (sometimes earlier?!), so I wake up along with him, and we usually finish eating in under an hour, so that's... lots of time before I'm supposed to work. (I'm trying NOT to send myself straight to work after eating/waking up.)
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I need new eyeglasses but am on a tight budget... especially because for the first time ever, I accidentally stepped on my glasses in the dark. ;_; (That was actually a couple of weeks ago, but, erm, I've been keeping it mostly together with scotch tape, hah.)
I was delighted when I found that the optical shop I usually get my glasses at had a branch near me...
... but now that I need them, I just found out they're closed for good. ;_; w h y
I suppose I could try out the other shops in the nearby malls, but doing a quick google search made me wince at the prices. ;___; My options are to either attempt to find cheap glasses at Quiapo (and I'm unfamiliar with that particular area) or to take a trip to family!home and get my glasses done there... and I'll have to come back and pick them up later too. Ahaha.
I wish I could still borrow my mom's tiny tiny laptop so I could just sleep at family!home and work there while I do, but... you make do with what you have, yeah? ;_;
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u_u Does anybody have any advice for somebody who keeps crawling back into the bed covers every time they're done eating breakfast? The extra sleep I've been taking ranges from 1.5 hrs to 4 hrs. Today it was about 2 hours... granted, this has only been going on for the last three days, so maybe it's just a thing I'll get out of?
I'd really appreciate any advice I can get. I feel like it's due to just... not wanting to face the day, maybe being afraid of something--of submitting lackluster work? Which makes no sense because I've been doing just fine for months now. I feel like last week's political events may have had something to do with with my overall drop in feelings.
But yeah, I appreciate any advice I can get. I might try to make a list of 'Things to Look Forward To When I Get Up' tonight.
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I don't actually know if I'll have enough time to reply to comments, but I'll try! I'd really like to get back into writing for myself, as encouraged by my friends who are getting back into it lately, haha. Nabbed from thebonesoffersallletters
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I've been getting a lot better at not feeling bad about """"down""" times (lots of quotes, because I think the pressure of society makes one feel as if every minute must be spent doing something life-changing). The other day I got up a lot later than I would have liked, but instead of thinking I "should" have got up, I asked myself, "Do you need more time to rest? When will you be ready to get up?" And what do you know? I eventually got up, made myself breakfast, showered, even had the energy to go out from one city to another and have coffee and cake with my mother. And come home, and do the groceries with my partner. When back when I wrote this I would have probably stayed in bed feeling bad for myself and getting angry at myself for "wasting time"...
Yesterday--because she asked if what she heard was true--I came out and told my mother I did in fact go to therapy on my own after raising some funds online, and I told her that I did have depression and anxiety.
She asked me, "How are you now? Do you think you're okay now?"
I said I was a lot better now, that the therapy really changed my life--and I felt so sad that it's still inaccessible to a lot of people, a lot of warm-hearted people who really need it--and that I wanted to do something about battling the stigma against mental illness. That I wanted to help with mental health advocacy.
It turns out my mom is now actively helping with mental health advocacies too.
And I feel a lot better now that I could finally tell her without fear of being reprimanded for my mental and emotional needs. No, I don't think we've gotten to the nitty-gritty of things--but we've finally touched based on the surface level and I think that counts for something, one rainy day at a cozy little cafe, our embrace warmer than the coffee in our cups.
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It's afternoon where I am, at least. I spent my morning taking a long walk and finally playing Pokemon Go (yay, super cheap data plans I can afford on my tiny budget!), so I finally just reached level 10 ; w;
Yesterday, I jogged/ran for 1 hr, and according to Strava, I hit 6km??? I am joining a marathon in early Sept, I hope I can be prepared by then.
Tonight, I'll be having dinner with my partner at a really nice Japanese restaurant we tried recently :D I'm really looking forward to it~
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If you'd like to treat me to something for my birthday, dropping something in the tip jar would be awesome~
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Things that would make my year: slowly building up my Patreon total, even a dollar a month really, really helps, especially now that I'm back to studying + part-time freelancing ; w ; ♥
Thank you so much!!!
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My internet's still awful (one week and going! Awesome.) and my birthday month's still kind of... kicking me in the teeth. But, hey, at least I dyed my hair pink (FINALLY):
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It's one of Those Weeks and Days (TM), and I could use all the affirmative messages I can right now. :(
Thanks so much in advance.
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